The Road Darkens ...

I still have not made up my mind as to what to do. Why post this? Well, it helps to get it off my chest. There are always two sides to the story so of course things are colored by my personal feelings. I've tried to explain things to my friends, but it doesn't seem that they can understand my feelings. Hence a lot of fun I had on the game is kind of gone. How can things be fixed, I don't know. Last night I felt empty and sad. And if a game makes you feel like that ... it's time to take stock.

GYS (GraveyardShift) did a lot for me, that I am thankful for. I don't see how this will ever be mended (all I was looking for was an apology in the beginning). I still have the LS pearl. It's hard for me to throw away something that represents that first year in Vana'diel and all the fun I had. Who knows, maybe it will be broken someday, maybe sooner than I think. Until that time, I'll keep in in my MH.

So in case I decide not to play a lot anymore, or if I decide to leave ...





"Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens." -- J.R. Tolkien. So I'll try not to be faithless ... but I honestly don't know.

Somber Memories

Yes, we beat Dynamis-Bastok. Now up for Dynamis-Windurst.

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Ever feel disconnected in a way? Well I do. I'm sort of thinking of not playing FFXI anymore. We'll see what happens. I used to have fun just chatting with people and friends. But ever since my break with GYS, I find myself still irritated and annoyed. I never felt that people supported me after the rude things that a player had said. And if you can't count on friends ... whom can you count on. So that does color things a lot for me. So continue to have fun in FFXI. Maybe it's time for a permanent disconnect.